So it came to my attention recently that I have a slight obsession with getting married. I am sure it is because all my close friends are tying the knot, but who knows. I even found a ring I really like, on the cheap side, but he just stutters.... I start to think yea almost three years of dating, five of knowing each other is enough, but there is a night like tonight where HE, a.k.a the boyfriend says something stupid and insulting, such as if I had mace I would spray myself within a week of having it, that actually made me tear up. I question how much he knows me, really.
Still no job, but hopefully something comes soon. I am now surviving off birthday money and I.O.U.'s. Not very adult like.
Though I am thinking of returning to school, a technical school. But that means more loans, so that may not help.
I had a cousin who was four months older than me die last year, murdered outside a restaurant, and I randomly think of him. And because if him I gave finished my list of forgiving people who I have had problems with me, including ex's. All but one done, a friend who I had a falling out with over trust. I'm not sure why I just thought of that...
Well I am drained and tired.
Night all.
